What does one get when you add fire to gasoline?

This needs some explanation. To make a long story short:

About six months ago, plus/ minus half a decade, I was looking for my own business. Also: EMPLOYMENT. This is South Africa.

Honestly, most of that time I was well-employed. I just kept the account alive for the copywriters who had my back. (Liars!)

Thinking back, I even had a different Twitter account too. (Wonder if that one is salvageable?) I mean I knew Andrew Tate before he was a celebrity. The shame! (Come to think of it - bloody backstabber. He used to be such a nice guy.)

Anyhow, post disaster, post pandemic - not in that order. I decided I "got this". I was wrong. To all the other professional women out there, do NOT add "Miss/ Ms" to your name. In business it is fine. Online business platform - fail. There are a lot of lone wolves out there, looking for a miss. There must be something amiss? :)

After a few calls, a well-qualified individual very carefully reached out to me. So, I did some checking and was impressed. He gave me his number (as mine is Sacred), and we "connected". For those who do not know: That is how it is supposed to work.

Except, I was not aware of his baggage. As he was unaware of mine. We started collaborating. After three weeks of working together, I started sensing trouble. After two months I had fired and re-hired him in my head a dozen times a day! I went from care-free and trusting lady, to a stone-cold boss. As if someone just flipped a switch. It was him!

👆👆Of course, I did not want any of that! Still, I should not have gone like 👇

[please note, I do not usually squint]

Well, after all that happened a true friendship did blossom. The simple fact that I can now make him fall asleep to my voice is still a bit weird, but so what?

He was the Beta male to my Sigma INFJ. A match made in hell. Still, I confide more in him than anyone else…I suppose he's trying to play the long game. Problem is - I do not golf.

Despite it all, we do share the same interests in a lot of areas. I can help him. He's always willing to stand up for me. Therefore, I treasure his craziness. There is a Gaelic word that sums him up. A mix between a savant and a jester.

We both collect broken toys. Difference between us? He fixes them. I like mine broken. I am not evil, just more understanding. Besides, I am the lead singer and the "actress". I am allowed some drama.

We're at a good place. He knows I'm a wicked smart jinx, whereas he is the equally sharp mechanic.

Fire and gasoline.

Vast destruction looms close. Imminent self-destruction is a possibility. We feel your glare from the darkness. Are you confused? You should be. We are not prey. We are not predators. We are left with nothing to lose. That makes us more dangerous. Precious, vicious, wicked fiend.

Choose to be our friend. That is your only escape. The trap is set. We won't trigger it - why would you?

How a bloody♓ (Pisces) and a ♊(Gemini) ever got to this stage is laughable. Or it would be if we ever get more involved. Ladies, I know we all say we do NOT believe in that "rubbish", well, now I am a believer.

Two "gifted" kids, the girly man and the unspecified enchantress. (Sorry computer, I know you think I'm gay, but I refuse to go sexless in my own article). From different sides of the track. Should not be possible, but I have proof.

See, we don't think in terms of normal and abnormal. Sometimes I wonder if we stop to think at all. I know I do. Not too sure his on board. Luckily, I'm a strong swimmer. (Feel free to point out that by my own admission, air is often saving water here!)

Our biggest connection? Music. That's how we communicate. It's how it started. I pray it never ends. In fact, I often pray that my prayers be answered. Red flag. 🚩

Mind numbing drivel. Here's an example, I do believe a picture speaks a thousand words. You should too:

👆me

Him? 👇

And somehow, with all the wickedness, the near-death experiences, the shouting, and tears, were still good.

The real question: When we ignite, not if, when. Who will remain standing. Our mission and goal are a pacifist one.

We have rules. First: do no harm. Second: build/ create with love. There's a few more but we do not break the law and do protect those who need protection. Instead of "the good witch" think "humane society for equality and respect".

If a French, German-Jew, and a Portuguese "Boereseuntjie" can get their act polished up? Survive in this country, at this time, against all odds? Who knows?

Resigner

"Live simply, smile often, love much" ~unknown

Remember that hope will present you, as a dream, a wish from your heart - the secret desire to keep breathing and find happiness.

Resigner

#justmoveforward

P.S. For those who aren't familiar with the images, this should help…